As I reflect on the impact that apologetics has had on my life and faith I can't help but think about those who see the evidence and still don't believe that Jesus was the son of God. There are also those that have heard there is evidence but don't bother to give it a look and complain about God in some way. I think it really comes down to a matter of will. For me a big part of the reason I didn't want to commit to Christianity was that I didn't want to give up my lifestyle. I gave lots of other external reasons including: hypocritical Christians, how can you really know which religion is right, I'm a good person because I'm not as bad as Ted Bundy or whoever. But internally what it really came down to is that I still wanted to swear, I wanted to have pre-marital sex, I wanted to drink excessively, I didn't want to be a Bible thumper, I didn't want to be one of those weird religious people, and the list went on. It's not that I don't struggle with some of those things from time to time now because I do. Some of those things I don't do at all anymore while others are certainly much, much less frequent than they used to be and I'm still working on others. The important thing is that immortality no longer controls me like it did before my belief in Jesus.
When I was living apart from God (which is what I was doing by not committing to Jesus) sin controlled me and now I am free of the hold it had on me. That's not to say I don't still sin, because we all do, it's just that my bondage to it has been broken and the penalty has been paid for me. I think differently about my sin now than I did before. I'm remorseful and I turn from it even if I have to do it over and over again. The other thing I've noticed is that I see others sin differently too. I see it in light of the struggles I have had in the past and the struggles I still have. It helps me to have compassion for others when they stumble.
What I've learned is that evidence is very helpful but for most people becoming a believer is not a matter of the head but a matter of the will. Several years ago I exchanged private messages with an atheist who I had met in an atheist online forum. I asked what it would take for him to believe in God. His answer was that even if God appeared before him and he knew it was God appearing before him he would never worship Him. Which stunned me a little bit quite honestly. I asked him why and he said because he couldn't worship anyone who was as cruel as God was (see Paul Copan's book below for answers to this objection). It really illustrated the point to me about believing (or not believing) being a matter of will for many people and not just a matter of reason and evidence.
Is this you or someone you know? That no matter what evidence you are presented you won't believe? Can you look at the evidence objectively or is your will so hardened that you can't even give the evidence a fair look? Do you think it's intellectually dishonest to believe in God? Do you think there is no evidence and no matter what someone presents to you it won't even qualify as evidence? If it is then no amount of evidence will probably convince you. But if it's not and you have some questions you want answers to like: Why does God allow so much suffering and evil in the world? How can there only be one God? I've done some really bad things and hurt others, how can God forgive me or love me? Or maybe it's something completely different. If that's the case seek out the answers. Read a book, ask someone else who may be able to help, look at a resource from this or another apologetics blog, or pick up the Bible and start with John's gospel. Jesus said:
For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:8 |
It's promised to us that if we seek answers about God we will find them. So I encourage you to objectively seek answers and based on what Jesus taught you will find them.
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